As this year comes to an end and another year begins, I’m taking time to reflect.
have I lived my life to the fullest?
What truly matters in my life?
Am I doing what I set out to accomplish in this lifetime?
Am I aligned with my purpose?
Are my actions reflecting the deepest purpose of my heart and soul?
This afternoon I heard about a woman I know who had a double mastectomy a few years back is now having to undergo a full hysterectomy as a preventative measure. Her BRCA gene tested positive which means that her chance of getting uterine cancer have increased.
Another woman I know, who had breast cancer 10 years ago is now dealing with brain cancer.
Whenever I hear a story like these, it brings me back home, right in the center of my heart.
It has now been 2.5 years since I had my dealings with cancer.
Back then, I really came to understand how much our hearts matter.
I was shocked by how many tears I cried, cries of a lifetime it seemed.
My heart opened and I clearly saw the places in my life where I had closed my heart.
Since then, it has been a journey.
My meditation practice has become the most important part of my day and life.
I committed to sitting every day a few years back and have never stopped since then.
The practice of mindfulness, Tonglen, compassion and kindness towards self and others continues to be my main practice.
Every day, I get to see how crazy my mind is. I get to feel where my mind creates pain, through judgment and criticism- mostly towards myself and others.
I get to feel how powerful my mind is in creating happiness or misery.
Mostly I get to feel how powerful my heart is in releasing fear, anger, resentment over and over and over again.
My main reading while dealing with cancer was the book from Anita Moorjani “Dying to Be Me”. Anita came back from stage 4 lymphoma fully healthy without a trace of cancer 3 weeks after coming back from the “other side.” She had been in a 30 hour long deep coma.
While her body went dormant, her soul traveled to the place where we return to, the place of pure and unconditional love. She was given the choice to stay there even though her “time” hadn’t come yet and she chose to come back.
She didn’t know what the future held for her. Wayne Dyer, through his assistant searching the web came across her story on a NDE (near death experience) site and contacted her. He invited her to write a book and guaranteed her the publishing of that book through Hay House Publishing. The rest is history.
Anita now lives in CA with her husband and has become a public speaker on many stages around the world.
I read and re-read her book. I want to ingrain in my brain that only love holds this universe.
It has been and continues to be a process. More often than not I fail at remembering unconditional love all day every day, especially when my mind gets going and I feel that “I fail.” I “know” that there is no failure, there are only lessons learned yet I still get caught in believing that my mind is telling me the truth.
So as 2016 ends, I take the week between Christmas and New Year’s day to reflect, to take stock..
Have I done what I set my heart and mind to accomplish?
Have I been the human being that I want to be?
If my life ended tomorrow, would I have any regrets and if so, what would they be and how can I change that?
What is most important for me at this point moving forward in 2017?
I invite you to join me and make 2017 the year of compassion and passion in action.
Compassion mostly towards yourself will lead to compassion towards others. When compassion enters the room, there is no space for self-judgment and self-criticism. We always do the best with what we have every day at every moment.
When you relieve the pressure of not being “good enough”, you unleash your inner genius, your deeper/higher self, the one who has been and will continue to be your best guide, your heart.
Once your heart opens, your passion reveals to you what matters.
You know where to direct your love. You can set your course of action where your soul intends to.
Join me in setting your intentions towards self-compassion and kindness.
click here to join my private FB page entitled “Compassion and Passion in Action.”
In 2017, commit to spending a year tapping into your heart’s wisdom to fully live the life that your soul intends for you to live.. and become a “Change Maker on Fire.”
I wish you the best in setting your course of action as we transition into the new year!
Namaste (the soul in me bows to the soul in you)